Awakening the Atrophied Eye: DAY NINE

I have a problem.

I noticed it a few posts ago, but it didn’t occur to me that it would be a real problem. Now I can’t deny it, and have to figure out how to get this under control. 

I’m writing while I meditate.   

Instead of concentrating fully on what I’m supposed to be doing, I’m gathering notes and composing what my next blog is going to say.  That’s NOT good.   It explains why sometimes cool stuff happens and why sometimes it doesn’t.  So it doesn’t matter whether I’m meditating for an hour or not if I’m not really paying attention to what I’m doing.  It’s not the power of perception; it’s the power of journaling the experience, really.

I have to figure out how to shut that side of my brain off when I’m meditating.  I did it for an hour today, such as it were, but I spent the time plotting out the next blog.  When I realized what I was doing… basically sabotaging my project… I still didn’t stop.  I was reluctant to let go of the material I had composed at that point and risk forgetting it.  

Like I said, not good.

Why wouldn’t my immortal half consider that a form of paying attention to the threshold visions instead of focusing on meeting it?  You see what I mean?  What’s the difference between mentally writing a blog versus focusing on some illusory phantasms designed to lure me off the path to see if I’m serious or not?

Alright.  Okay.  I can beat this.  Surely there is some strategy I can take.  Maybe doing the looking down to the left trick will snap me to heel on that as well?  I’ll try it for the Day Ten session.  In the meantime I’m going to brainstorm some other workarounds in case that isn’t considered a form of threshold vision and isn't so simple to defeat. 



See Also:

Awakening the Atrophied Eye: A Personal Quest to Find the Followers of Second Sight

Awakening the Atrophied Eye: DAY ONE

Awakening the Atrophied Eye: DAY TWO

Awakening the Atrophied Eye: DAY THREE

Awakening the Atrophied Eye: DAY FOUR

Awakening the Atrophied Eye: DAY FIVE

Awakening the Atrophied Eye: DAY SIX

Awakening the Atrophied Eye: DAY SEVEN

Awakening the Atrophied Eye: DAY EIGHT

Awakening the Atrophied Eye: DAY NINE

Awakening The Atrophied Eye: DAY TEN

Awakening the Atrophied Eye: INITIATION

Awakening the Atrophied Eye: The Wisdom Eye Returns

Awakening the Atrophied Eye: The Night of Power

Awakening the Atrophied Eye: Mark of the Striver

Awakening the Atrophied Eye: Third Eye FAQ