Saturday, September 21, 2013

Awakening the Atrophied Eye: DAY NINE

I have a problem.

I noticed it a few posts ago, but it didn’t occur to me that it would be a real problem. Now I can’t deny it, and have to figure out how to get this under control. 

I’m writing while I meditate.   

Instead of concentrating fully on what I’m supposed to be doing, I’m gathering notes and composing what my next blog is going to say.  That’s NOT good.   It explains why sometimes cool stuff happens and why sometimes it doesn’t.  So it doesn’t matter whether I’m meditating for an hour or not if I’m not really paying attention to what I’m doing.  It’s not the power of perception; it’s the power of journaling the experience, really.

I have to figure out how to shut that side of my brain off when I’m meditating.  I did it for an hour today, such as it were, but I spent the time plotting out the next blog.  When I realized what I was doing… basically sabotaging my project… I still didn’t stop.  I was reluctant to let go of the material I had composed at that point and risk forgetting it.  

Like I said, not good.

Why wouldn’t my immortal half consider that a form of paying attention to the threshold visions instead of focusing on meeting it?  You see what I mean?  What’s the difference between mentally writing a blog versus focusing on some illusory phantasms designed to lure me off the path to see if I’m serious or not?

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